‘Damn it! Lola. I had no idea you went through so much. First with your dad and then mine… and all while you were so young. I can’t even imagine what you had to go through.’
No matter how many men I fuck, no matter how many times I fuck them, I just can’t forget Tosin’s dad. The way he touched me, the way he taught me to touch him. I guess in a sick and twisted way I should be grateful to him. If not for what he taught me I would have died of hunger. I had to put what I had just learned to use in order to make money. After all, I learned the most important lesson from daddy: work equals food.
I feel Tosin’s hand on my cheeks. When did that tear fall? This night has been so much, too much. My emotions are everywhere.
‘Well isn’t this a touching reunion.’
What?! Whose voice did I just hear? It can’t be. I must be imagining things.
I turn around quickly and standing before me is the man who put me through so much pain for so many years. Daddy. But what is he doing here? Why is he…?
I turn to look at Tosin and he’s staring at daddy too. There’s a fierce look in his eyes. Does he know daddy? What’s going on?
‘What are you doing?! I told you to wait!’
What?! He knows daddy? What?!!!
‘And miss all this? I don’t think so. I want to see the look in her eyes when she realises she’s been betrayed all her life.’
What is he talking about?
I’m so confused right now. I slowly stand up from the stool, shifting my weight to my good leg.
‘Tosin? What does daddy mean? What’s going on? Why is he here?’
The look of guilt is back. I see it so clearly and I feel so disgusted.
‘You lied to me?! All this was an act?! Congratulations!’
I’m limping to the kitchen door as quickly as my throbbing ankle will let me.
‘Lola please I can explain!’
’Why bother? She’s going back to what she knows how to do best, whoring. Just like her whore of a mother.’
This stops me in my tracks. I can take being insulted, abused, beaten but not mummy. Mummy did nothing but protect me as a child. She tried so hard to shield me from daddy and he has no right to talk about her that way.
I remove my hand from the door handle and turn to face daddy.
‘Don’t you ever talk about mummy that way! Ever! All these years I’ve been scared of meeting you. After everything you did to me, mummy was the light I saw whenever I felt so deeply wrapped up in the dark. I will not tolerate any disrespect from you about her!’
I was shaking all over. This is the first time I’ve ever confronted daddy and I don’t know what to expect. Tosin hasn’t spoken much since daddy appeared. I doubt I’ll get any help from him if daddy decides to get violent.
Instead of being violent, Daddy begins to laugh. A deep laugh that chills me more than the thought of him striking me.
What’s so amusing?
‘Dozie. That’s enough. Haven’t you hurt her enough already?’
‘Oh! But I’m simply telling her the truth. One that has been kept from her all these years.’
I look between Tosin and daddy. Tosin seems uncomfortable while daddy seems to be enjoying himself.
‘That wasn’t the plan Dozie.’
‘Fuck your plans! I want my gold watch now!’
Gold watch? Plans? They’ve been working together? For how long? Why?
‘We’ve been following your plans all these years and now that we’ve found her I can’t just let her go.’
Then he turns to me.
‘I always wondered what happened to you after I sent you to Femi’s house… That’s Tosin’s dad’s name.’ He added when I looked confused.
‘I waited and waited till I saw some men looking around, that’s when I knew something was up. I left you cause, it’s better you than me, since you were a child. But imagine my surprise when I find out he’s into children. I thought to myself, I could have just traded you for the watch.’
I feel so sick and disgusted. How? How could mummy marry someone like this? Is he really my father?! How could you say something like that to your child.
‘When we finally found you, Tosin wanted to be sure it was you. He was supposed to sleep with your roommate, the chatty one, can’t remember her name but the idiot had sex with you instead. Then I get curious, me meeting you that day wasn’t supposed to happen but I just had to see what was so special about that pussy of yours, maybe I could get in on the action as well.’
My hands sting but I don’t care. The surprise look on daddy’s face is the satisfaction I need right now. I didn’t even know when I got close to him, it was as though my legs and hands reacted on their own.
‘You bitch! How dare you lay your hands on me!’