Toy? How am I a toy? Do I look like a Teddy bear? But I don’t say anything. I don’t want Tosin’s daddy to be angry, and hit me again. ‘Wear your clothes sweetheart, you’re going for a little drive.’ He moves away from me and pulls out a jacket from his closet. Drive. The …
I watch as Tosin approaches me and see that he’s serious. He really wants to force himself on me. My mind is racing, what can I do? What can I say to stall him as I think of something? ‘Tosin. You don’t want to do this.’ I move a little to my side that’s facing …
‘Good morning sweetheart.’ I feel Tosin’s daddy’s hands touch my cheek and try not to turn my face away. ‘I’m sure my clothes were able to keep you warm last night.’ I refuse to look at him and the hand that is touching my cheek squeezes my face forcing me to look at him. My …
‘Lola fine! I’m sorry. I kept the truth from you. It wasn’t intentional. I was only trying as much as possible to protect you…’ It seems I have a bit of daddy in me or maybe it’s just the anger boiling inside of me. All I know is that I can no longer listen to …
It’s raining… I can’t help but smile at the irony as I feel my blood slowly leave my body. It is said that when you’re about to die, your life flashes before your eyes. All that flashes before my eyes are my mistakes and regrets… I was young when I married Femi, young and foolish. …
‘You bitch! How dare you lay your hands on me?!’ Years of receiving blows steeled me for daddy’s punch I knew was coming. After all, that’s all I’ve received, all I’ve learned to receive. Blows, slaps, fucks… another one or two wouldn’t make a difference. So I steeled my face for that oh so familiar …
‘Yeah. That’s it. Just the way I taught you. Ughhhhhhhhh!’ He grabs my head like he usually does, pushing and pulling me up and down. A movement I’ve gotten used to with time. ‘Yesss. Oh yes! I’m coming sweetheart.’ Sweetheart. I remember the first day Tosin’s dad called me that. It meant something to me. …
‘Damn it! Lola. I had no idea you went through so much. First with your dad and then mine… and all while you were so young. I can’t even imagine what you had to go through.’ No matter how many men I fuck, no matter how many times I fuck them, I just can’t forget …
Mr Tosin’s dad said he’ll take care of me. Does that mean he’ll make me work just like daddy before I eat? Will I have to go to someone’s house to take something too before I’m allowed to live here? I don’t understand. ‘What do you mean by “you’ll take care of me”?’ ‘You’ll understand …
I feel this sinking feeling in my stomach like I’m going to throw up. He was fascinated by little girls?! So it wasn’t just me? Many other girls had been bought and sold like property for his amusement. It seems Tosin notices my reaction and puts his hands on mine but that doesn’t help. I …